I got the phone call this morning that today was transfer today. The RE on call told me that there are 2 perfect embryos and a lot more good ones to freeze (she referred to it as a "family"). She was so nice (I hadn't met her yet, OHSU has a team of 4 REs that rotate). She told me to fill my bladder an hour before so at 9:30 I drank 2 bottled waters for the 10:30 appt.
They were behind so by the time they got me back there (like 11:05) I was dying! But, I didn't want to risk going "a little" in case I couldn't stop. The RE talked to me about the risk of OHSS still attacking if I get pregnant, specially with twins. She asked if I would want to just transfer one (no way) because I still have a high chance. She said she would check the fluid in my ovaries before making a final decision. Then the embryologist came in and chatted with us but didn't give us a total number because they are waiting to see if some hit blastocyst tomorrow.
The doctor came back in and did a real ultrasound (on the outside of my stomach). She confirmed bladder was super full (duh) and that there was a little fluid around the ovaries. She said she felt comfortable with 2 embryos if that's what I wanted.
The speculum is bigger and wider for transfers, but this was the "moment" all of this has been leading up to. On the screen we watched as the 2 babies were transferred into my uterus. She said she thinks they are placed in a great spot.
Everyone has a different opinion of when life begins. As a teenager I firmly believed that life begins the SECOND the egg hits the sperm. I was and am ProLife. But as a younger woman, I didn't really think about my "opinion" on all this in regards to IVF. Like I said, please don't be offended if I don't think the exact way you do, but here's where Darren and I stand:
1. God alone is the author of life and death. He decides which embryos lives on and doesn't.
2. We believe that it is a life when the sperm meets the egg INSIDE the body. The embryo cannot live without my uterus. We had to think this one through because the concept of "frozen embryos" gets a little intense if I look at them as frozen souls. I know look at them as "cookie dough" that needs my "oven" to become a cookie.
3. With all this said, right now, this moment, with 2 little embryos FORSURE inside my body, I'm pregnant. I've prayed the whole time God guides the right sperm and grows the right embryos and selects the ones He wants right now to be put in me. If I don't get a positive pregnancy test, I know the REs don't acknowledge it as a miscarriage, but we will. I believe those little babies will be in heaven waiting for us if they don't make it through.
So, with all this, I guess I'm officially kind of sort of maybe pregnant.
Again, prayers are sooooo soooo soo appreciated! I want to knock down heaven's door with prayers. If the answer from Him is still "no" I'll be sad, but I will still follow Him and love Him.