*Disclaimer: I have been ttc for almost 3 years. Sometimes when people I follow got pregnant it gave me hope for the future but as it went along, although I was soo happy for them, it still kicked me in the gut (the original announcement). I want to be SOOO sensitive to people who follow/read my blog so I originally started a new blog where I was going to put my bump updates, shower details, etc. I started it for the triplets but instantly deleted it the day we had our loss. I've decided to keep it all in one place. I PROMISE to not complain or go on and on about how "perfect" things are. I plan to post an update about once a week. If you are in a place where my blog brings you pain instead of hope, I won't be offended if you stop reading for now. My heart is so heavy for people that are in the process of ttc with all the fear and worry and obsessing that comes. You women are on my heart and mind all the time.
Today I hit one of the big milestones: 12 weeks. Since we've had 2 miscarriages so far, the 12 week is a great step in the right direction. I'm relaxing a bit more and finally allowing myself to feel excited and overwhelmingly grateful. I went to the grocery store the other day and since I'm not supposed to lift anything over 20 lbs, I opened a carton of water bottles and put them in my cart 1 by 1. The cashier gave me a funny look and I said "Oh sorry, I'm pregnant and can't lift heavy items." It felt so fake. I'm saying "I'm pregnant?" Is this a dream? It still seems so crazy since the last 3 years of my life have been wondering if and how.
I got to have another ultrasound (#5) at eleven weeks 3 days and my mom came with. I was with my regular OB who has been with me since the beginning of the IUIs. I grabbed her hand as she was doing the ultrasound and said, "Dr. Foster I've been waiting for this moment with you for so long." My mom got to see the little twins moving around (1 was way more active) but the heartbeat was clear. I'm glad my mom got to experience a "happier" visit since the last one she came with me on was when we found out we had lost one. I asked Dr. Foster about drops of blood and she said "honestly at this point I don't think you need to worry about the pregnancy." I get to go in again at 13 weeks for down syndrome screening and then gender reveal in early October!! I'm dying to know.
Here's my first official Bump update!!
How far along: 12 weeks